Fairy Godmothers

Hans Christian Andersen once said that Life itself is the most wonderful fairy tale. If he is correct then the question I must ask is Where is my fairy godmother. 

When life gets out of hand and spins spiraling out of control, are we not supposed to be assigned a Fairy Godmother?  Someone who will come along and wave her wand and set the world back right? Someone who will make all the bad go away..someone who will put a smile on your face again?  To help guide the lost to be found. 

I want my fairy godmother. I need her more than anything.  I have so many things going wrong in my life, so much chaos in my heart and my mind, I NEED my fairy godmother.  She needs to appear, to wave her wand, to change my clothes from the slums to a beautiful gown.  To make beautiful again.   To fill my heart with happiness and joy.  Where is she.  Why has she not appeared to me yet.  WHy do I not deserve a happy life. Why has she deserted me at a time I feel like I need her most.  I am lost in the desert, wondering around broken, just praying for my fairy godmother to guide me, fix me, and return me to where I am loved and my soul will shine the brightest.    Where is my fairy godmother to grant me my hearts greatest desires.  Please Fairy Godmother, please come help. I'm at the edge of my cliff and feel myself falling.   Please Fairy Godmother, save me.  

Lost

I feel lost...completely lost.   I feel that most people my age have a direction in life, a point in the distance they plan to reach.  They may not have a specific map, but they know where the end of their destination lies.   I, well I am wondering around in circles.   My compass is broke, the sun never rises and sets the same every day, the moon refuses to show itself from behind the clouds, and there is nothing to see but miles and miles of sand. 

Where is point of ending...or at least my point of being? Do I keep traveling in the same direction, trekking my way in the vast openness?   Do I turn left and see if my feet shifts more easily step by step? Or do I turn around, try to step where I've already been in hope to see if I've stumbled over my path but didn't see it the first trip. 

I'll continue on as I am...putting one foot in front of the other.  Struggling to finish my journey.